23-05-2011, 03:46 AM
My name is Andy and I am a compulsive gambler.I have not had a bet for 1 year today,since 23rd may 2010.I am pleased that I have managed to abstain for this length of time,but I know only too well,its just 1 bet away from disaster,so its just 1 day at a time.I said to myself this time last year if only I could stop gambling for 1 year,things would be so much better,I thought id be able to get out of debt if I worked hard,and didnt gamble,but it hasnt worked out that way.Debts have got higher,and I now wonder how I ever managed to gamble.But then again,things werent quite so dire a year ago in the world of business.But after some 25 years of gambling to have 1 full year off it feels strange.I dont miss it 1 bit,as I HATE GAMBLING.It has never done anything for me except bring pain,misery,loss,depression,debt,and hundreds of other bad things as well as rob me of my youthful days,relationships,and my personality.Part of me is lost forever to the disease and will never return,but all I can hope is that I continue along the corrrect path,which is definately away from any form of gambling and stay clean.But just for today,I will not gamble.Andy.