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trying to get started
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I am a compulsive gambler, im married with children, and terrified of losing them. I hide my addiction from my wife, although not very well. I love her and i am ashamed, I want to tell her everything,try to start fresh, attend GA... and most of all live an honest open life ...even while i write this I haven't had the courage to talk to her.. the outcome of the conversation scares me.. she would be within her rights to turn her back on me.
she knows something is wrong and knows Ive had problems before. she is suspicious of me and I dont deserve her patience, I hate the fact that my behavior is causing her stress
i need to face this,, if i have any chance of saving myself from destruction... I cant beat it without help .. I now can see that.
I know I have to talk to my wife and be open and honest... I know I have to face the consequences.
But god im scared of losing my family, and my wife..
I always put this off, and therefor cant start to recover.
I want to be someone she admires, I am embarrased by what I am
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trying to get started - by eugenebo60 - 25-08-2011, 12:51 PM
Re: trying to get started - by barrieexgambler - 26-08-2011, 10:55 AM
Re: trying to get started - by wangman28 - 31-08-2011, 08:41 PM

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