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Newbie looking for advice
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Today has been a bad day. It started off pretty naff (woke up with a migrane), and got progressively worse (broke a huge chunk of a tooth). I ended up going out for a while to cool off a bit as I was really struggling with temptation, and after a while out with a friend who I confided in while I was out, and also going on a longish drive about as I find that not only relaxes me but has the positive side effect of being a great distraction too, I still ended up gambling when I got home.

I'm feeling really terrible about it, and wish that I had used my phone list, but because of the late hour I didn't even think about it at the time. I'm one of those annoyingly considerate people like that and won't ring people after 9pm or before 9am unless it is a life and death emergency.

On the positive side of things though, I did feel bad about it while doing it, so have self-excluded from the site concerned as well as beefing up some of the security on my system which I managed to get through too easily because of an unintended loophole. I also didn't get the same buzz as I have done every time previous, most likely because I know that I've let myself down and now have to do the first few days over again.

Today I had a hiccup, but tomorrow I will try to be stronger and not gamble. I'm also going to use my phone list tomorrow to talk to someone from my meeting. This isn't going to put me off, in fact it has made me more determined to put more effort in and do things the right way as it is a lot better to try and stop first through whatever methods are available and using the tools and people that I have, than to gamble then feel as sick to the stomach with myself as I do right now because of it.

For the rest of today (I know theres not much left!) I will not gamble. Tomorrow I will try again and double my efforts.
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Newbie looking for advice - by Rmllbzd - 26-08-2011, 11:22 PM
Re: Newbie looking for advice - by mo8865 - 28-08-2011, 10:58 AM
Re: Newbie looking for advice - by Guest - 28-08-2011, 07:35 PM
Re: Newbie looking for advice - by Rmllbzd - 29-08-2011, 09:59 PM
Re: Newbie looking for advice - by Rmllbzd - 02-09-2011, 02:17 AM
Re: Newbie looking for advice - by Rmllbzd - 04-09-2011, 01:22 AM
Re: Newbie looking for advice - by Rmllbzd - 04-09-2011, 01:28 AM
Re: Newbie looking for advice - by Rmllbzd - 05-09-2011, 02:20 AM
Re: Newbie looking for advice - by Rmllbzd - 05-09-2011, 05:08 PM
Re: Newbie looking for advice - by Rmllbzd - 05-09-2011, 11:16 PM
Re: Newbie looking for advice - by Rmllbzd - 06-09-2011, 11:03 PM
Re: Newbie looking for advice - by Rmllbzd - 07-09-2011, 11:43 PM
Re: Newbie looking for advice - by Rmllbzd - 10-09-2011, 02:51 AM
Re: Newbie looking for advice - by Guest - 12-09-2011, 03:40 PM
Re: Newbie looking for advice - by Rmllbzd - 13-09-2011, 03:07 AM
Re: Newbie looking for advice - by Rmllbzd - 15-09-2011, 03:44 AM
Re: Newbie looking for advice - by Rhythm1966 - 21-09-2011, 01:47 PM
Re: Newbie looking for advice - by Rmllbzd - 22-09-2011, 06:16 PM

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