Newbie looking for advice

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I've had a practice run to tonights meeting earlier today to get a rough idea of where I'm going. It wasn't too difficult to find and it's relaxed me quite a bit, or it had till I sat down with some food a few mins ago and the butterflies have come back big time. My plans nearly got changed too which as I've been building myself up for going all day I wasn't happy about so I just said I was going out and couldn't, which naturally led to being quizzed about where I'm going, what for and who with. I pretty much just deflected them but I can guarantee I'll have to answer them tomorrow. At least I'll have all day to prepare some answers. I'm not ready to be honest about where I'm going just yet. Anyway about another 30 mins then I'm going to need to set off to give me plenty time to get there, find somewhere to park and find the exact address. I'd rather be far too early and have time to kill than be on the last minute as I'd just talk myself out of it saying that I'd be late and so better to not go today. I'm getting really nervous about going as it is getting closer but I'm determined to do it so I'm not going to let my nerves get the better of me.

I'll write again later when I get home again and let you know how I've got on including if I did manage to go in or chickened on the doorstep.

Taking everyday as a day for change and each day as a day I aim to not gamble on, one day at a time.

Kez