07-09-2011, 02:58 PM
hi all, went to my first meeting last night, all i can say is if you are thinking about it dont, just go, i am so happy i went, everyone made me feel welcome and it was good to know that i am not alone in all this.
Today thou is not going well having some massive urge to bet, not because of the meeting, but because i have worked out how much i was up, only last friday, i am talking silly money, why could i not just walk away, got so much guilt, anger and hate towards my self, i was set for life no more trying to find cash to pay bills, buy a car, i had it all, but as a gambler i allways wanted more, that is my problem i dont when i should quit, the plus side is that if i didnt lose i might of lost more, but i will always hate myself for not getting out at the right time.
thanks
Today thou is not going well having some massive urge to bet, not because of the meeting, but because i have worked out how much i was up, only last friday, i am talking silly money, why could i not just walk away, got so much guilt, anger and hate towards my self, i was set for life no more trying to find cash to pay bills, buy a car, i had it all, but as a gambler i allways wanted more, that is my problem i dont when i should quit, the plus side is that if i didnt lose i might of lost more, but i will always hate myself for not getting out at the right time.
thanks