02-10-2011, 11:55 PM
Hi.
I'm 20 in December, and ever since my 18th Birthday I've been hooked.
Casino', Horses, Fruit Machines have never intrested me at all. I've always stuck to what I know in football.
While I was at college I used to use any cash I had to bet, this meant every week the money was deposited online and wasted, some weeks were good but I'd always end up with nothing.
I then got my first proper job 12 months ago, every pay day pretty much the entire wage was deposited online barring rent money. Any free money I used to gamble really. Some days were good and I knew to withdraw but in the end I'd always end up blowing it all after a week, sometimes even after only a few hours of being paid. I'd patiently wait for next pay day to roll around kidding myself into thinking that THIS WILL BE THE MONTH where it wil all change, sadly it never did. Inbetween pay days I'd use whatever cash I could get my hands on (Stealing from my brother & Selling an xbox & ipod) to use at the bookies, which again would result in favour.
This has been the story of my life for the past 12 months. Living to gamble. False hope.
I got paid on Fridaymand again over the course of the weekend I deposited it all online, one stage I was considerably up and plotting what I was going to buy only to gradually lose it all. All I had left in my account was money for rent which I somehow managed to trick myself into thinking I'll easily win that back again. IN the end I lost it all.
My strategy has always been high stake low odds singles, I still try and convince myself that next time will be different but it never is.
I want out of this cycle, I'm at a real low now as I have no Idea how I'll explain where the rent money went to my mother, she really depends on my money.
contemplated ending my sad existance tonight, I feel empty.
I'm 20 in December, and ever since my 18th Birthday I've been hooked.
Casino', Horses, Fruit Machines have never intrested me at all. I've always stuck to what I know in football.
While I was at college I used to use any cash I had to bet, this meant every week the money was deposited online and wasted, some weeks were good but I'd always end up with nothing.
I then got my first proper job 12 months ago, every pay day pretty much the entire wage was deposited online barring rent money. Any free money I used to gamble really. Some days were good and I knew to withdraw but in the end I'd always end up blowing it all after a week, sometimes even after only a few hours of being paid. I'd patiently wait for next pay day to roll around kidding myself into thinking that THIS WILL BE THE MONTH where it wil all change, sadly it never did. Inbetween pay days I'd use whatever cash I could get my hands on (Stealing from my brother & Selling an xbox & ipod) to use at the bookies, which again would result in favour.
This has been the story of my life for the past 12 months. Living to gamble. False hope.
I got paid on Fridaymand again over the course of the weekend I deposited it all online, one stage I was considerably up and plotting what I was going to buy only to gradually lose it all. All I had left in my account was money for rent which I somehow managed to trick myself into thinking I'll easily win that back again. IN the end I lost it all.
My strategy has always been high stake low odds singles, I still try and convince myself that next time will be different but it never is.
I want out of this cycle, I'm at a real low now as I have no Idea how I'll explain where the rent money went to my mother, she really depends on my money.
contemplated ending my sad existance tonight, I feel empty.