26-11-2011, 05:32 AM
Anuj,
Hi and thanks for the share.
Wow: I can relate to everything that you wrote. Fruit machines became my home and I remember playing them like it was yesterday which is a very valid point I will later come to. In goes a pound, spin, spin, win, wow, I didnt look at the credits and the cost, i just looked at the "bank", strange bank is one that you dont know how much you put in but you know how much you have there.
Then slowly the pocket full of coins would become less, collect the bank and try for a bit longer, oh down on that one, onto the next and then suckered...lost...lost more...desperate now...really into this one, its gripping me, if only I could get the "bonus beauty special..." I may recover a little...but my mind knows...i will recover a little and continue...Bang Skint.
"oh well" payday two weeks time...
See this "desease" gets deeper..it makes us do more bad, the more we earn the more we throw away. I was in such a deep hole, I could see no light.
But even though as stated before I feel it like it was "yesterday" I dont live for yesterday and i Live for today. In that day I say to myself in the morning Just for today I will not gamble and by the time I sleep i hope i have not.
Go to GA and embrace it, I truly hope you get on the programme.
TC
B
Hi and thanks for the share.
Wow: I can relate to everything that you wrote. Fruit machines became my home and I remember playing them like it was yesterday which is a very valid point I will later come to. In goes a pound, spin, spin, win, wow, I didnt look at the credits and the cost, i just looked at the "bank", strange bank is one that you dont know how much you put in but you know how much you have there.
Then slowly the pocket full of coins would become less, collect the bank and try for a bit longer, oh down on that one, onto the next and then suckered...lost...lost more...desperate now...really into this one, its gripping me, if only I could get the "bonus beauty special..." I may recover a little...but my mind knows...i will recover a little and continue...Bang Skint.
"oh well" payday two weeks time...
See this "desease" gets deeper..it makes us do more bad, the more we earn the more we throw away. I was in such a deep hole, I could see no light.
But even though as stated before I feel it like it was "yesterday" I dont live for yesterday and i Live for today. In that day I say to myself in the morning Just for today I will not gamble and by the time I sleep i hope i have not.
Go to GA and embrace it, I truly hope you get on the programme.
TC
B