12-12-2011, 01:37 PM
Welcome Bunster and thank you for your post. You remind me a lot of myself. It could have been me that had written your post half a year agoe.
I too have a long way to my meeting. It is important to go to as many meetings you can, preferrable atleast one a week. But if you truly can´t then it is better to go meetings as often as you can, even if it is perhaps only once every month. It is always better to go to some meetings than none at all. And meetings are crucial help in your recovery, and together with a phonelist to the people at your meeting, the GA litterature, together with the online meetings on here, and the chat and forum, you will receive help, support and understanding.
I had tried to stop so many times before, but always went back. To me too it felt like I am just hopeless and will never be able to break this addictions. Therefore it would be better to end my life, just to get out of it. All the selfloathing and disappointments in myself and my inabilities. All the lies and all the hurt I did to others. But in recovery these feelings will change, so please just hang on. Coming here and posting is a great first step. Well done!
You will have to find your way in all of this, but you are not alone and there is a way back to enjoying and living again. So many peoples before you have done it, and you can too.
To me I find it helpful to work on letting go of my fears of what other people might think of me. I really can´t read these peoples mind. And even if I could, it is their thoughts, not mine. I can´t change or make undone all the things I have done, but I can change today, one day at a time. And there within lies my responsibilities as a recovering compulsive gambler.
God, Grant me the Serentiy to Accept the things I cannot change
Courage to Change the things I can
and Wisdom to know the Difference.
Through going to meetings, through working the 12 steps of recovery, I know there is hope for both of us.
With warmth.
I too have a long way to my meeting. It is important to go to as many meetings you can, preferrable atleast one a week. But if you truly can´t then it is better to go meetings as often as you can, even if it is perhaps only once every month. It is always better to go to some meetings than none at all. And meetings are crucial help in your recovery, and together with a phonelist to the people at your meeting, the GA litterature, together with the online meetings on here, and the chat and forum, you will receive help, support and understanding.
I had tried to stop so many times before, but always went back. To me too it felt like I am just hopeless and will never be able to break this addictions. Therefore it would be better to end my life, just to get out of it. All the selfloathing and disappointments in myself and my inabilities. All the lies and all the hurt I did to others. But in recovery these feelings will change, so please just hang on. Coming here and posting is a great first step. Well done!
You will have to find your way in all of this, but you are not alone and there is a way back to enjoying and living again. So many peoples before you have done it, and you can too.
To me I find it helpful to work on letting go of my fears of what other people might think of me. I really can´t read these peoples mind. And even if I could, it is their thoughts, not mine. I can´t change or make undone all the things I have done, but I can change today, one day at a time. And there within lies my responsibilities as a recovering compulsive gambler.
God, Grant me the Serentiy to Accept the things I cannot change
Courage to Change the things I can
and Wisdom to know the Difference.
Through going to meetings, through working the 12 steps of recovery, I know there is hope for both of us.
With warmth.