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first time in sorting myself out
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dont know were to start really, in my childhood was rottern as my father was a acholic, he was a monster when drunk hitting and beating us, my mother left him when i was born , also was sexualy abused for many years, as i grew up i always found a way to self harm , and had nothing to show for it, i always earn a good wages again have nothing to show for it, over the last couple years i went to portland hospital to get help , just talk about my past and how i would do things to harm myself , funny the thing as i was seeing a counsellors in those few years i was really getting my life on track, but at the same time i started to gamable the odd few pounds , 2 years later it started to run my life , someweeks would spend every peeny i had , then lie to my partner or daughter to get my fix, even though i felt disgusted with myself in lieing , so here i am , got my first meeting next week and see were life take me, really want to stop , stop my lies and be a better person , as i am at the moment disgusting liar that wont stop at anything just to gamable
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funny the thing as i was seeing a counsellors in those few years i was really getting
> my life on track, but at the same time i started to gamable the odd few pounds ,
> 2 years later it started to run my life

Hi williams,

This describes my gambling recovery at times...things start to improve so i have another bet...why???

The only logical answer is that I am addicted to compulsive gambling.....simply because i never feel able to stop....i always want to gamble more

Have you been to GA meetings and worked the GA recovery program? Never mind if you haven't as I didn't use it until i was ready, but just know that if you want to go, all you need is a desire to stop gambling and be willing to put in the effort to recover a day at a time

Details of meetings on the main ga page.....
Best to you Williams....let us know how u are...
hugs Smartie
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