28-04-2011, 11:56 PM
Kash..lost...again...
A very straight from the heart post my friend and you found the right place for advice, wow I read so much into your story of my former self its untrue. I dont want to go into how I am now fixing it only to offer up some advice.
Firstly yesterday I made my mum cry when she read my post from a couple of days ago and in her words "it was because she wasnt there to help me" I spent between 18-23 not near family, in my mind I had a desease and needed understanding and help.
You must change this "alone" aspect of your life and this will take some very very brutal honesty to some people who still probably love you but just want you to change, please remember I was as Bad as you are now.
The reason I say you need others around you is its quite simple without access to cash you cannot gamble. My first step to admission came when I went to GA..before this point I would "mask" over my problem, because the desease had made me able to do this very well.
You need to go to GA and before you do my advice to you is simple: Pick up the phone, call your mum and say "mum I know I have been a very bad person but I have realised I am a compulsive gambler and I am going to go to GA to get help, I need help to look after my money so i cannot return to gambling" or even better do it after your first meeting.
You will actually feel relieved, relieved from the pressure and world gambling creates. No one can ever answer the question to me "why did you become a compulsive gambler, how?) I just did.
At the moment you feel "alone" in all your guilt, but your not alone, if I told you my story you would not believe all the things I have done, but with GA and the power it gave to me I am now off that rollercoaster.
There are many people who regularly attend GA that look like normal people without issue, people who do good things in there societies but when you get to know them they tell you a story similar to yours.
You cannot chnage your past but you can change your future, one day at a time, gambling free.
Go to GA my friend, check the website for local meetings, it will be scary but for you very valuable, maybe the best choice you ever made in life.
Take Care
barrie
A very straight from the heart post my friend and you found the right place for advice, wow I read so much into your story of my former self its untrue. I dont want to go into how I am now fixing it only to offer up some advice.
Firstly yesterday I made my mum cry when she read my post from a couple of days ago and in her words "it was because she wasnt there to help me" I spent between 18-23 not near family, in my mind I had a desease and needed understanding and help.
You must change this "alone" aspect of your life and this will take some very very brutal honesty to some people who still probably love you but just want you to change, please remember I was as Bad as you are now.
The reason I say you need others around you is its quite simple without access to cash you cannot gamble. My first step to admission came when I went to GA..before this point I would "mask" over my problem, because the desease had made me able to do this very well.
You need to go to GA and before you do my advice to you is simple: Pick up the phone, call your mum and say "mum I know I have been a very bad person but I have realised I am a compulsive gambler and I am going to go to GA to get help, I need help to look after my money so i cannot return to gambling" or even better do it after your first meeting.
You will actually feel relieved, relieved from the pressure and world gambling creates. No one can ever answer the question to me "why did you become a compulsive gambler, how?) I just did.
At the moment you feel "alone" in all your guilt, but your not alone, if I told you my story you would not believe all the things I have done, but with GA and the power it gave to me I am now off that rollercoaster.
There are many people who regularly attend GA that look like normal people without issue, people who do good things in there societies but when you get to know them they tell you a story similar to yours.
You cannot chnage your past but you can change your future, one day at a time, gambling free.
Go to GA my friend, check the website for local meetings, it will be scary but for you very valuable, maybe the best choice you ever made in life.
Take Care
barrie