01-01-2014, 11:29 AM
Thanks Jay. I don't have money this month for taxis but I take your point and will do so next month. I will use the online meeting till then.
I think things had to get this bad to make the reality hit. Reading the 12 steps info I understand how my mind was working - the 'gambler's fallacy' - and maybe it's necessary to treat this as an alcoholic would and take it one day at a time, and not go to where the temptation lies. Living alone doesn't help matters but I need to remove the access to the addiction. How do I do that? I don't know how to block these sites as I'm not very computer-literate and if it's a parental controls type of block it seems it would be easy to get back in as I'm the one doing the blocking.
I think things had to get this bad to make the reality hit. Reading the 12 steps info I understand how my mind was working - the 'gambler's fallacy' - and maybe it's necessary to treat this as an alcoholic would and take it one day at a time, and not go to where the temptation lies. Living alone doesn't help matters but I need to remove the access to the addiction. How do I do that? I don't know how to block these sites as I'm not very computer-literate and if it's a parental controls type of block it seems it would be easy to get back in as I'm the one doing the blocking.