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My emotional triggers and my unhealthy reactions to people life and situations
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Hi

My emotional triggers were not excuses I turned to unhealthy habits.

My emotional triggers indicated that I was emotionally vulnerable that my hurt inner child was not healed.

My emotional triggers were my pains not healed, were my fears not faced. 

My emotional triggers were my frustrations due to my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations. By me having unreasonable expectations of people life and situations I was effect causing myself pains time and time again. 

My emotional triggers were my feelings of loneliness due to my fears of emotional intimacy. 

My emotional triggers were my feelings of being bored. 

I can be honest today with out being cruel or adversely affecting other people. I can embrace change towards healthy habits today. 

My unhealthy reactions to people life and situations indicated that my hurt inner child was not healed. 

My unhealthy reactions were in anger, resentments, impatience intolerance, jealous, envy, rage, lack of trust, guilt shame regret remorse penance person pleasing vengeance mistrust self worth low self esteem indicate that I am not fully healthy and not at serenity with myself today. 

In time I would open up in the recovery program, I would open up to counseling talking about every conscious memory of my past. 

The recovery program helped me set up boundaries for myself.

Just for today I will not be unhealthy, that changes to just for today I will be healthy. 

How can I get stimulated in to more healthy habits today.

Today do I things reluctantly, resentfully, out of penance, out of guilt or shame, do I person please, am I trying to buy friends today, if I do things for unhealthy reasons I get no satisfaction from doing them, I am cheating myself.

There was a person who said at a meeting he was glad that he was a compulsive gambler, my first reaction to his comments he was nuts, then he explained that by being a compulsive gambler he found out how unhealthy he was.

I seriously did not know how unhealthy I use to be, I honestly thought that gambling controlled my life.

By working my non religious recovery I am healthier than I was when I was about seven years of age.

Things that use to make me very angry now make me laugh.

The addictions and obsessions were a form of self abuse and self denial.

Did I enjoy burying and suppressing my pains feelings and my emotions.

Did I enjoy being a dysfunctional person.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham.
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(17-07-2019, 11:25 PM)Fruitwannalosethecake Wrote: I tired to rate this 5 * but made a mistake

For me rating is not what it important, it is how ever much we can relate to each other and to make healthier choices in our life today.

I do hope my sharing will help you have the same clarity I have in my life today.

Love and best wishes.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham
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(17-07-2019, 11:25 PM)Fruitwannalosethecake Wrote: I tired to rate this 5 * but made a mistake

Hi

Thank you for your comments,

The ratings of text is not what is important.

It is our growth and healing is what is important.

Thank you for your honesty.

Regards  

Dave L
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The recovery program would help me understand when I am emotionally vulnerable and how to over come my emotional triggers.

Some people in the recovery program people will say that our emotional triggers are just excuses and will not acknowledge any emotionally vulnerability.

Sadly by ignoring my emotionally vulnerability I could not heal my hurt inner child.

By talking about my past I am acknowledging it and that I am today I am more of a survivor today.

I can not change the past yet I can certainly learn from it.

Each lie I tell myself hinders my healing today.

Each lie I tell myself means my fears are not reducing today.

I use to feel so lonely and vulnerable even when I was with other people.

Today even when I am alone I do no feel vulnerable.

Being in the recovery program I have learned to work with other people like a team, our healthy interactions helps me in so many ways.

As I humble myself to being an equal to all people I raise myself from living in the pits of despair and misery.

In my addictions and obsessions I felt so disconnected from people and society.

Expressing my gratitude and appreciation helps me demonstrate my healthy values and interactions today.

Expressing my gratitude and appreciation indicates how much I care today.

I am not willing to give up faith and hope in myself today no matter what happens.

As I got more in to my recovery my steel was going to be tested even more as I progress.

I am learning from my past not living in it.

How do I know I have forgiven myself today.

Because I am able to laugh at myself today.

Nothing is gained by us beating our self up today.

The recovery program would help me become more productive, help me become more at peace with myself, help me have a healthier relationships with myself and other people.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham.
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#5
Hi

The addictions and obsessions only indicated how emotionally vulnerable I was.

I was far from weak, I had suffered many forms of abuse and due to the pains of my past my fears grew in me.

The risk taking caused an adrenaline rush in me which sadly I got in to thinking was fun and happiness.

Also the risk taking also indicated that I did not value myself hence I could not value other people.

I am a non religious person, even though I had a conscience I could not stop myself from hurting myself and other people.

Thinking that a really big win would undo the pains I did to myself and the pains I did to other people.

Anger was a very unhealthy reaction to my pains I could not heal.

Anger was a very unhealthy reaction to my fears I could not face.

Anger was a very unhealthy reaction to my frustrations due to my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations.

By me having unreasonable expectations of people life and situations I was effect hurting myself and causing myself more pains.

I understand that nothing I can do or say will change other people to become heathy or take the recovery program seriously.

No matter time since my last bet the most important day is today.

My direction and my focus in being and becoming healthier I am more focused on my needs my wants and my goals.

I use to hear certain people say that they did not have enough hours in the day, I use to think what a load of crap.

At this time in my life I think I do not have enough hours in the day.

I am now 74 years of age, I push my body in to getting things doe that I am able to do.

If I do not try I am cheating myself.

Every thing I do has a reward one way or another.

Every day I feel I have a full healthy life, I have clarity on my needs my wants and my goals.

On walking in to recovery my fears were 10 out of 10.

Now my fears are less than 2 out of 10

I use to fear failure, I use to fear the opposite sex, I use to fear paying the taxes, I use to fear the dentist, I use to fear letting people know when I was vulnerable, I use to fear being honest, I use to fear emotional intimacy, I use to fear letting go of control issues, I use to fear talking about my fantasies, I use to fear talking about my dreams, I use to fear losing my job, I use to fear Mondays going back to work, I use to fear coming back from holidays, I use to fear trusting myself and other people.

For me today I do not gamble, today I exchange an unhealthy habit in to healthy habits.

It takes time for people to see or understand how recovery works, some people have gone to meeting for months with out talking and that is a good thing, because one day a time comes where people talk things out.

I have now been married for over fifty years and I am not sure why my wife Shirley stayed with me.

I know that in my recovery as I became healthier my control issues reduced, and as I got healthier my wife had no reason to fear me any more.

Being in the recovery program I learned to love myself, and over time I learned to love other people.

Being in the recovery program I learned to respect myself, and over time I learned to respect other people.

Being in the recovery program I learned to be more patient and tolerant with myself, and over time I learned to more patient and tolerant with other people.

Being impatient and intolerant with myself only indicated how hard and cruel I was on myself.

Please take your recovery very seriously, once you give up your unhealthy habits you will have so much more value in your self your life and others.

Each time we go back to our addiction helps us understand what our last emotional trigger was.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham
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