09-05-2010, 08:00 PM
I can fully identify with your story.Very much the same,ive gambled houses.cars,businesses,and even blown very large amounts in 1 day,gambling my home away and then having noowhere to live by the end of that day.I still continued to gamble until I reached a point inside me which couldnt take no more.Having abstained for various periods I had a slip yesterday and earlier this week,and now back to day 1 again.Only trouble is now I am on my own,with no girlfriend,very few friends and find myself hating seeing people happy,or even when the sun is shining,I hate it,because it makes everything look good and better,but in reality it isnt,everything is bleak and black.These are the deptyhs of my depression I cannot climb out of,and you too could become like this after 20 years of gambling.But if you stay clean,you will lead a happy and better life.