10-05-2010, 11:23 AM
Hi Andy
The worst thing about all this is the fact that the likes of us cannot reallistically provide any meaningful advice to each other. In many ways it's almost like the blind leading the blind, isn't it? I'd love to be able to say to people "Hey I was once like you but I haven't gambled in years now, and I can help you stop too", but I can't. I'm not even being stupid enough to say that I'm never going to gamble again, I've said it too many times before. All I can say is, I haven't gambled in four days, and tomorrow it will hopefully be five days. I think sometimes we're blinded by the losses we've sustained and forget the most important thing is just being happy with ourselves and feeling normal.
You know since about 2004 I've never set foot inside a casino or a bookies. I've only ever gambled online. The reason is I couldn't stand the thought of people looking at me losing and thinking "You poor thing". I couldn't stand the thought of pity. The thought of people feeling sorry for me was far worse than the thought of actually losing money. Perhaps it's that feeling which is the real reason I want to stop. I mean, at the end of the day if I was a multi-multi billionairre, would I mind losing tonnes of money? Probabaly not because I'd know that noone would be feeling sorry for me, including me.
Anyway I'm rambling again, I know. Thanks for your reply, Andy. I really hope that some day soon you can find happiness again, or atleast a feeling of normality, and not the constant sickily feeling of having to say to yourself "Oh no!... I've done it again, haven't I?"
The worst thing about all this is the fact that the likes of us cannot reallistically provide any meaningful advice to each other. In many ways it's almost like the blind leading the blind, isn't it? I'd love to be able to say to people "Hey I was once like you but I haven't gambled in years now, and I can help you stop too", but I can't. I'm not even being stupid enough to say that I'm never going to gamble again, I've said it too many times before. All I can say is, I haven't gambled in four days, and tomorrow it will hopefully be five days. I think sometimes we're blinded by the losses we've sustained and forget the most important thing is just being happy with ourselves and feeling normal.
You know since about 2004 I've never set foot inside a casino or a bookies. I've only ever gambled online. The reason is I couldn't stand the thought of people looking at me losing and thinking "You poor thing". I couldn't stand the thought of pity. The thought of people feeling sorry for me was far worse than the thought of actually losing money. Perhaps it's that feeling which is the real reason I want to stop. I mean, at the end of the day if I was a multi-multi billionairre, would I mind losing tonnes of money? Probabaly not because I'd know that noone would be feeling sorry for me, including me.
Anyway I'm rambling again, I know. Thanks for your reply, Andy. I really hope that some day soon you can find happiness again, or atleast a feeling of normality, and not the constant sickily feeling of having to say to yourself "Oh no!... I've done it again, haven't I?"