25-11-2010, 04:26 PM
hi all
im back here again surprise suprise lol well things did get a little better after hubby help sort stuff out in may time money got better and i felt better so i thought why go to meetings?? how wrong was i im still gambling not to the point im hundreds in debt like back in may luckily my bank put a stop to that after i borrowd yet more money to pay that off.. from my father in law
but im still spending money i dont have and as of today am over my agreed limit and will incure charges which i know... my hubby still checks my back account sees money gone out has a little moan what were u thiking etc.. then drops it n says its a good job i love you isnt it i ask him to unban sites so i can do the free proms but always end up puitting money on i cant stop myself... as im doing it im thinking u idiot u know ur gonna loose.. yet another side of me is like this is it... THIS TIME IL WIN lol talk about deluded its shamefull but part of me just cant not
i went to the docs about it she put on propranolol for nerves panic attacks anxiety etc as i was sending myself mental they do work and ive also lost 3st ive tackled my weight i just wish i could tackle this....
im scared of going to a meeting incase i sit there and sob like a baby and make myself look like an idiot.. but maybe thats the only way??
thanks for reading again xx
im back here again surprise suprise lol well things did get a little better after hubby help sort stuff out in may time money got better and i felt better so i thought why go to meetings?? how wrong was i im still gambling not to the point im hundreds in debt like back in may luckily my bank put a stop to that after i borrowd yet more money to pay that off.. from my father in law
but im still spending money i dont have and as of today am over my agreed limit and will incure charges which i know... my hubby still checks my back account sees money gone out has a little moan what were u thiking etc.. then drops it n says its a good job i love you isnt it i ask him to unban sites so i can do the free proms but always end up puitting money on i cant stop myself... as im doing it im thinking u idiot u know ur gonna loose.. yet another side of me is like this is it... THIS TIME IL WIN lol talk about deluded its shamefull but part of me just cant not
i went to the docs about it she put on propranolol for nerves panic attacks anxiety etc as i was sending myself mental they do work and ive also lost 3st ive tackled my weight i just wish i could tackle this....
im scared of going to a meeting incase i sit there and sob like a baby and make myself look like an idiot.. but maybe thats the only way??
thanks for reading again xx