21-05-2010, 02:59 AM
ive gone and done it again,gambled all day and yet again,got into bigger mess than even I had imagined.It is completely,utterly hopeless.Im lying awake at 3am in the morning trying to work out how I can end my life.Ive really reached the end now,I cant take any more.I had no intention of gambling yesterday,but again got hold of funds and the disease got me again.I am powerless over this disease and completly destroyed.It owns me and I have nowhere to turn.I beg for mercy.Andy