22-05-2010, 09:56 PM
Yes ive been again to meeting,then gambled again,then gambled again.Im really on the self destruct mission,like a juggernaut down a hill with absolutely no control.I gamble as soon as I can lay my hands on any money,and further more getting deeper and deeper in the mire.Ive managed to smash 4 credit cards to thousands of pounds of debt in a few days and now the reality of how am I going to pay them back has kicked in.Im in a mental and crazy state of mind,I am unable to help myself,as I really dont believe there is anything to look forward to so whats the point of trying to give up.I have given up on myself and Im probably going to lose my home very soon,thanks to my all out destruction mode.