15-07-2010, 03:21 AM
Hello again Andy,
You know this illness is progressive and when we have some abstinence and then go back to gambling each time is worse.
I lost so much of my life to gambling. Lost relationships, marriages, home, car, family members, good jobs etc. etc. I was 55 before I finally surrendered on my knees and once again dragged myself into another GA meeting (by the way I had to hitch a ride that night). I had been in prison for fraud, lost my sanity and the next step was death for me. Ten years on I still struggle with day to day things and because I am know on an aged pension sometimes find it difficult to juggle my bills and expenses but believe me Andy I wouldn't exchange my life that I have today with the one I had 10 years ago. There is something holding you back and you need to deal with whatever these things are. You have been around the GA program for quite some time now and if you are not progressing it's because you are not working the steps enough. Some of us CG's Andy have to work harder than others (me for one).
I also walked into GA hundreds of thousands in debt and knew that I would never be able to pay these off, but have made restitution where possible, you are not expected to go without food or neccesities but any money left over should not be squirrelled away waiting for our next bet.
Go to your local Library and order a book by a man called Bill Lee -' Born to Lose'. Very empowering reading.
I am going to get real mad with you Andy if you don't start recovering and I will come on over to England and give you a good shove and I still have some go in me, even at 65 lol.
Let me know how you are doing as I have followed your story for a couple of years now and can feel the pain you are going through.
Best regards
Helen
You know this illness is progressive and when we have some abstinence and then go back to gambling each time is worse.
I lost so much of my life to gambling. Lost relationships, marriages, home, car, family members, good jobs etc. etc. I was 55 before I finally surrendered on my knees and once again dragged myself into another GA meeting (by the way I had to hitch a ride that night). I had been in prison for fraud, lost my sanity and the next step was death for me. Ten years on I still struggle with day to day things and because I am know on an aged pension sometimes find it difficult to juggle my bills and expenses but believe me Andy I wouldn't exchange my life that I have today with the one I had 10 years ago. There is something holding you back and you need to deal with whatever these things are. You have been around the GA program for quite some time now and if you are not progressing it's because you are not working the steps enough. Some of us CG's Andy have to work harder than others (me for one).
I also walked into GA hundreds of thousands in debt and knew that I would never be able to pay these off, but have made restitution where possible, you are not expected to go without food or neccesities but any money left over should not be squirrelled away waiting for our next bet.
Go to your local Library and order a book by a man called Bill Lee -' Born to Lose'. Very empowering reading.
I am going to get real mad with you Andy if you don't start recovering and I will come on over to England and give you a good shove and I still have some go in me, even at 65 lol.
Let me know how you are doing as I have followed your story for a couple of years now and can feel the pain you are going through.
Best regards
Helen