22-05-2011, 10:18 PM
Guys, I need help.
I have a massive problem, i'm not araid to admit it. I believe that all gamblers have a certain "addictive personality".
I am writing this post now, whilst watching a live feed to a soccer match, where yet again im hoping to try and get lucky.
I have lost thousands and have even taken out a loan, im 25 and i just cant stop myself. I have a beutiful girlfriend that i do not deserve, which i am keeping this from, it would end our relationship. I am a very busy person and would not be able to attend the meetings, but i am hoping fellow addicts can help me slowly get through this. I have decided i am going to help other people with postings as well and I need people around me right now to help me out.
I get a sinking feeling everytime i lose or dont gamble, i feel i need to have an interest in some kind of bet to keep me going.
I feel physically sick with myself and i feel disgraced and people that do not understand gambling will think i'm an absoloute mug. And its true, but they dont understand the pain i go though at times. Hopefully this is my first step in a long recover. I want to enjoy life again.
I have a massive problem, i'm not araid to admit it. I believe that all gamblers have a certain "addictive personality".
I am writing this post now, whilst watching a live feed to a soccer match, where yet again im hoping to try and get lucky.
I have lost thousands and have even taken out a loan, im 25 and i just cant stop myself. I have a beutiful girlfriend that i do not deserve, which i am keeping this from, it would end our relationship. I am a very busy person and would not be able to attend the meetings, but i am hoping fellow addicts can help me slowly get through this. I have decided i am going to help other people with postings as well and I need people around me right now to help me out.
I get a sinking feeling everytime i lose or dont gamble, i feel i need to have an interest in some kind of bet to keep me going.
I feel physically sick with myself and i feel disgraced and people that do not understand gambling will think i'm an absoloute mug. And its true, but they dont understand the pain i go though at times. Hopefully this is my first step in a long recover. I want to enjoy life again.