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I do not want to back to unhealthy obsessions today
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My Name is Dave of Beckenham. I am becoming healthier in a spiritual way. Yet I am not a religious person.

I bought a couple of cakes for the meeting tonight in Exeter.

The cakes are a way of me thanking every one in that room tonight for being there for me, because with out you guys I would not be who I am today.

I am not person pleasing, I do not seak appoval from any one, the cakes are a way of me saying how much I value myself today.

My gratitude is an indicator of how much my values have changed today, my gratitude is an indicator of how many spirtual values are in my life today.

On walking in the spirtual recovery I did not understand how unhealthy I was, today I am maturing and growing in so many ways,

Understanding that my reaction to life and other people is my responsiilty, it took me over 23 years to grasp an understanding life being unmanageable was due to my emotional triggers.

My unhealthy reaction to life and other people is about life being unmanageable due to my pains my fears my frsutrations my loneliness and my boredom.

If I remained feeling like a victim tells me I am not healing my pains in a healthy way, if I am being resentful I am not healing my pains in a healthy way, if I am taking other peoiples unhealthy actions and words personally I am not healing my pains in a healthy way.

Understanding panic was due to the high levels of fear I was living in for a large part of my life.

Panic caused me to do or say unhealthy things, panic caused me to doubt myself and every one else, panic was due to teh fact I felt like I was out of control in my life.

My sulking was an indicator that I had not matured and grown up.

My sulking was an indicator that I was not happy with the way things were going.

My sulking was an indicator that I was not accepting the limitations of life or other people and that my expectatons were unreasonable about other people and life.

There are not enough hours in the day for me these days.

Having lists of things to do helps me stay very focused on today.

Fear caused me to doubt myself and fear caused me to doubt peope around me.

Recently I have made purchases of tools to get jobs done, each time I do new jobs I build my confidence in myself.

When I ask for help is an indicator of how strong I am that day, when I ask for advice and directions is an indicator of how strong I am that day, when I show how vulnerable I am emotionally is an indicator of how strong I am that day.

My healthy motives are important to me today, I do things because I want or need to do them thtm today.

As I cross things off my want and need to do list I am building the confidence in myself, as I cross things off my want and need to do list I am improving th pride I have in myself.

Each healthy action I do is saying that I value myself today.

Just for today I will is about me setting my mind to do things that are healthy for me an people around me.

Setting boundaries is about how much I value myself today.

I am looking forward to the 50th Celebration of GA in the UK at Basildon Essex.

I did not have a clue how important the spiritual recovery program was going to have on me.

I walked in to the recovery program emotionally traumatized, not able to see any thing clearly.

My questions were due to my insecurity I had learned to live my life on the edge of my nerves.

With each lie came more fear, in time I was able to get honest with myself.

No matter when a person had their last bet, I am an equal to them.

I am able to be far more accountable to myself today.

I understand most aspects of the spirtual recovery program.

My motives for doing things are not resentful, I do things willingly.

I am not torn a part with rage and anger, I am content with myself today.

I was not stupid bad or evil, I was just a very weak vulnerable unhealthy person.

I am doing well and trying to have full healthy productive days yet while respecting my physical limits.

I do not want or need to gamble today.

The obsessions and addictions were an indicator that I had poor resolve in how I felt with in myself.

Fear was a way of me protecting myself

I no longer want to live in fear any more.

I do not fear the gambling establishments today.

I use to say that I wanted to be normal.

Today I want to be healthier than normal.

Love and peace to everyone.

Dave Of Beckenham
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Hi Michael
Thank you for your response to my posting.
I do not have an original book with me I am sure of that.
Yes every one has their own idea what honesty is all about.
With each lie fear grows.
I would like to think that I am the same person with all people.
Not long till we meet in Basildon.
Do I bury pain today or do I deal and heal it today.
Take care till we meet.
Regards Dave
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