08-05-2011, 09:29 AM
Dear John,
You told one lie too many.
You have portrayed me to be the villain, a bitch, money grabbing nasty piece of work.
Your family shun me, our friends think you are the life and soul of everything because you can smile and laugh.
You are the best friend that anyone could have, you are kind, helpful and caring.
Everyone thinks I am miserable and boring. I find it hard to talk to people now, because I find it difficult to lie.
I can no longer paint a smile on my face and pretend everything is rosy. I have a conscious, I feel guilty and so run down that I wish I would never wake up again.
I have finally come to realise that I am feeling guilty because I believed I drove you to gamble everything away.
I now have realised that this is not true.
Your kindness and smiles have not been for me.
Your son hates me, yet I am the one who walked to work with holes in my shoes so that he could have School Uniform, Birthday Presents and Christmas Presents. You have taught him to regard me with contempt.
I will take that from him, as I don't want him to know the truth - he is 12 years old and does not need the burden.
You can tell friends and family all the lies you like about me - If that makes you feel better.
I will always love the man I married, but not the husband I have now for he does not care.
Words are cheap, tears are easy from you, but I now have an appt with doctor to get some help as I don't want to go on anymore.
I know your first concern will be finding the bank cards and your appt with the bookmakers and God that hurts me so much!
Lap up the sympathy that comes your way, I won't say a word. I don't have the strength anymore and I really don't care.
Good luck to you - You will make fantastic husband for someone when you have sorted yourself out.
I just ask you to remember who you destroyed on your way.
It was me that was kind, caring, considerate, who loved you so much, who wants you to have a happy future.
It was you that got it so wrong -
This is the first step to my recovery - I want to one day be able to smile again
You told one lie too many.
You have portrayed me to be the villain, a bitch, money grabbing nasty piece of work.
Your family shun me, our friends think you are the life and soul of everything because you can smile and laugh.
You are the best friend that anyone could have, you are kind, helpful and caring.
Everyone thinks I am miserable and boring. I find it hard to talk to people now, because I find it difficult to lie.
I can no longer paint a smile on my face and pretend everything is rosy. I have a conscious, I feel guilty and so run down that I wish I would never wake up again.
I have finally come to realise that I am feeling guilty because I believed I drove you to gamble everything away.
I now have realised that this is not true.
Your kindness and smiles have not been for me.
Your son hates me, yet I am the one who walked to work with holes in my shoes so that he could have School Uniform, Birthday Presents and Christmas Presents. You have taught him to regard me with contempt.
I will take that from him, as I don't want him to know the truth - he is 12 years old and does not need the burden.
You can tell friends and family all the lies you like about me - If that makes you feel better.
I will always love the man I married, but not the husband I have now for he does not care.
Words are cheap, tears are easy from you, but I now have an appt with doctor to get some help as I don't want to go on anymore.
I know your first concern will be finding the bank cards and your appt with the bookmakers and God that hurts me so much!
Lap up the sympathy that comes your way, I won't say a word. I don't have the strength anymore and I really don't care.
Good luck to you - You will make fantastic husband for someone when you have sorted yourself out.
I just ask you to remember who you destroyed on your way.
It was me that was kind, caring, considerate, who loved you so much, who wants you to have a happy future.
It was you that got it so wrong -
This is the first step to my recovery - I want to one day be able to smile again